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my youtube journey so far and where my channel is headed

my youtube journey so far and where my channel is headed


Hey guys welcome back to my channel and
before I start the video I just want to say thank you thank you thank you to all
of my patrons and to all of my subscribers for coming here every week and just
supporting my content and caring about me because it means honestly more than
you could ever know! So this video is going to be about my youtube journey now that I’m around two and a half months into it, and also where my channel
is heading in the future. I’m obviously a small youtuber so when I started out I
wanted to join small YouTube communities and I did that on Facebook. I joined a
few groups in order to connect with people who are in my situation to share
my content to see what they were making and so forth, but in the end I ended up
leaving around a month in and that was because it was very triggering for me
and by triggered I mean the group’s triggered my eating disorder. I’ve been
battling an eating disorder since I was in high school and you know I’ve been
managing it and it’s fine, but being in those groups brought back some bad
habits and so I needed to get out of them and this isn’t an indictment or you
know hate to those people in those groups I just had to personally leave
because it was hurting my mental health. Seeing such a concentration on
numbers really wasn’t good for me and if you struggle with an eating disorder I’m
sure you know what I’m talking about. All the group’s cared about were gaining
subs views and likes, and yeah you know that’s what we’re all trying to do here, but
it was under this guise that they actually wanted and cared about your
content when they clearly didn’t. We were making totally different videos and
leaving very superficial comments on each other’s content because in truth we
just didn’t care. We just wanted to “watch like and comment” on there
and they would do it on our video and it just was not a very healthy thing. And I
realized that I actually want people to come to my channel and watch my videos
because they actually wanted to, but I originally attracted to these groups because I thought that the people on the groups would actually care and want to help me,
but of course you know in the end they didn’t and like Big Joel said in his
small YouTube video, we’re all just trying to do the same thing, so these
groups are not helpful at all you know. We’re all just trying to find an
audience and we’re not gonna find an audience with people who are also trying
to find an audience that’s totally different from the audience we’re trying
to find. So it just had to be a very toxic and very kind of unhelpful place,
at least for me, and when you would ask for advice on these groups they would
tell you you know your SEO needs to be better you need to have a better title
you need to have a better thumbnail and I too am guilty for giving the same
advice, the same futile advice that honestly is a helpful, but only to a
certain degree. But the people in these groups like Big Joe said are just in
this kind of stuck place where they’re trying all these things and nothing’s
happening for them and you know, you see someone else growing and then you feel
anger towards them and I didn’t want to feel anger towards people who are being
successful, I wanted to be happy for them. And because these groups are all about
numbers it becomes like this competition you know, and it really reminded me of
being back in like 2011 Tumblr when all people cared about more numbers when it
came to the ED community, the eating disorder community. And people just you
know posted their their numbers on there and it was just not helpful especially
for someone like me, who was so immersed in those kind of communities and being
back in these small YouTube communities ,who also just cared about numbers, also
made me feel bad about myself and in the end that’s why I chose to leave. And it
wasn’t just triggering in the sense that it triggered my eating
disorder, but I also grew to realize that there is really nothing you can do to
make people want to watch their videos. They will watch your video
because they want to, you can you know do SEO and thumbnail and stuff and title to
help you be discovered or make it to the front page or whatever, but in the end no
one’s gonna watch your video unless they want to. And yeah you can help them you
know help convince them to make them want to watch your video, but in the end
they will not click on that unless they really are interested in your content,
and you cannot trick someone into watching your video. And some of these
people in these groups were specifically aimed into getting famous
on YouTube and I just didn’t really jive with those kind of accounts because I
want people who actually like and want to watch my content, like and watch my
content. And I also realized that you know YouTube is a corporation obviously
and they don’t really care about small youtubers anymore or you know whatever
individual creators…Hey guys just popping on while I’m editing I just want
to say that it’s not that YouTube doesn’t care about independent creators
it just cares about a certain type of independent creator, such as independent
creators that don’t have political views or don’t rebel rousers too much or
complain too much. The kind of content that YouTube champions right now our big
creators who have unproblematic opinions whose content isn’t focused on leftism
or leftist thoughts and content creators that can easily peddle products in their
videos. And this specifically at least in my mind mean makeup youtubers or beauty
gurus or bloggers you know channels that are family-friendly that don’t curse too
much or that don’t ruffle too many feathers. Those are the kinds of
independent content creators that YouTube actually care about. And actually TiffanyFerg made a really good video about corporate YouTube and
how YouTube is actually paying money for celebrities to make content, so yeah… So
that’s also happening so I also kind of got you know disillusioned with this
whole YouTube stuff like pretty early on which i think is good because otherwise
they would still be in those groups and like trying to like get famous or
whatever. And I couldn’t care honestly less about that at this point and less
about my numbers I’m just happy that there are some people out there to
honestly enjoy my content and who genuinely leave good comments. So I’m
just really happy about that, so the biggest advice that you know I could
give is that to be on YouTube you need to really really really love making
videos because it is tiring and a hard work and honestly my videos aren’t even
that highly produced so I can’t even imagine what it must be like for other
channels that have really really high quality content and they’re also
independent business owners, so that’s what I really learned. I know everyone
says this you know to be on YouTube you have to love making videos, but in the
end it’s true you know it really is true. I had a blog for 3 years and I thought
you know that was hard you know, but it’s nothing like compared to making youtube
videos. I thought I could just make the transition, but it’s it’s very
difficult, but those small independent creators I guess I’ll name them like
Lindsay Ellis, TiffanyFerg, Casey Aonso, Jenny Nicholson, Kat Blaque, T1J, they’ve inspired me to make videos. I truly can say that I do like making
YouTube videos even though it’s hard and grueling work, when I’m done with a video
I feel so good about it. Like every time I finish a video I’m like this is my new
favorite video. So I think that’s really where you need to be especially like in
YouTube where it’s so focused on numbers and where it’s so triggering you know
you just have to love the content making and not care about the numbers.
If you actually go into my videos when I was in the small youtuber
community my videos had like slightly more views, but a lot more likes and a
lot more comments and that was because on those groups there were these things
called “watch like comment for watch like comment” and I would do those you know
and honestly I would leave kind of ingenuine comments on these other
people’s videos because I honestly didn’t care about their content and then in turn I
would also get like some kind of superficial comment on my video. So
that’s why I left because I really wanted people who actually enjoyed my
content watching it, so that’s why if you go back into like my August videos
they’ll have like slightly higher views and slightly more comments and likes and
that’s why those kind of shot up, and then started going down again because I
left those groups, but honestly I’m happy that I left them. Like I said and I don’t
care that they have less likes or that they have less views because I know that
those views and likes and comments and whatever from before weren’t all genuine.
You know again this isn’t like to bash those people. I totally get why
they left the comments they did or why they weren’t interested in my content, and that’s
because we were making totally different content. And this was just an obligatory
thing we had to do because we cared so much about numbers, and I’m glad I’m not
in that space anymore and sometimes I wonder if I joined YouTube too late
because I wanted to have a channel for like honestly the longest time since I
was in college I wanted to have a YouTube channel, but instead in college I
started a blog where I would just write about my feelings or write about my
feelings on certain TV shows or certain movies or just certain things I’ve
noticed in life, and I did that for a really really long time, but this year I
finally took the plunge to start my YouTube channel and actually like put a
face to my posts. And I think it was worth it. I’m just gonna try the best that I can now and hopefully I can reach some people
and start a conversation and find other people who also you know want to share
ideas with me in a constructive way. And that’s really why I have my channel not
just to Lord my opinion over people and think that I am the only one that’s
right, but to really you know say my opinion but then I also want to hear
what other people have to say in the comments and if I’m resonating with
other people, if other people have thought on the same things I have, etc.
And that’s really why I have my channel because I feel like I so many ideas in
my head that I just need to get out and even if it only reaches just one person
or whatever I’m happy about that. Another reason why I have my channel is
just so I can have a creative outlet. Honestly, and just talk about how I feel
about things even if no one responds or cares.
I had my blog for three years and almost no one knew about it because I didn’t even want to
share it with other people. It was just kind of like a diary and this is now
what my youtube channel is. Honestly it’s just my diary on thoughts that I have
about my favorite things and my least favorite things, and if that connects with
other people you know I’m really happy about it because I like to have talks
about things that aren’t in the mainstream because just because they’re
not in the mainstream doesn’t mean that they’re not important. So now that I’m
done talking about those small youtube communities I want to talk about where
my channel is headed. So I’ve been doing a lot of scripted content. My favorite
video on the channel right now probably has to be my How Hollywood Vilifies
Bully Victims because I put so much heart into that video, I just love that
video so much and it was all scripted. I’ve done a lot of scripted content and
in the beginning of my channel when I first started I did a lot of unscripted
content like this, just talking to the camera and I do think that I’ve gotten
better at it, the unscripted content and the scripted
content, and I do like doing scripted content because I can get my thoughts
together and it’s more organized and easier to watch and to understand, but I
also really like doing unscripted content because I like that it’s more
relaxed and I like having an outline and just kind of going through it like I’m
doing now. And I think in the future I want to do more unscripted content. Not
all of my content will be rambling like this. Other content will be
scripted and legitimate video essays where I’m not just speaking off the top
of my head, so yeah and I also want to say that I’m going to be moving away
from like expat content or Brazilian content or whatever and that’s because
that’s what I love and that’s what I love talking about. I like talking about
Brazil sometimes and I probably still will you know post some stuff about
Brazil or me learning Portuguese, maybe in the future, but right now I want to
focus on media critiques and media criticism because that’s honestly what I
love and if I’m not making videos about what I love I will probably not be able
to survive in YouTube. So that’s what I’m gonna be doing. I hope that you like the
content that I put out in the future, but if you don’t that’s okay you know in the
end I know that this channel has to be for me because if it’s not I’m not gonna
be happy with it. And I also want to say that my scripted
videos are in my video essay playlist and my rambling or more
stream-of-consciousness videos are in my hot take playlist. And the more that I’m
on YouTube, the more I realize that the other creators that I really like and
follow have a brand or have kind of like a look associated with their channel, and
I don’t really have that yet because I haven’t really tried cultivating one. I
have gone through a transition phase in my thumbnails where I used to put my
face in the thumbnail and now I don’t because I just hate seeing my face in
the thumbnail. So I like instead putting in like little pop culture things that
I’m gonna talk about in the video in the thumbnail. I don’t want my face to be the
brand, even though that’s probably the best way to go about this, and I think
that the brand associated with YouTube channels really comes from the fans and
not as much from the person putting out the content because as much as they
try to like have control over their narrative, the fans or the haters or
whatever will put the brand on the creator and will prescribe things to
them. So as much as I try to like cultivate an image of myself or whatever
it won’t really matter. You know people are gonna see me for who
they want to see me as, and I’m just gonna do me. I don’t really have a color
scheme or a thumbnail theme or pattern and I think that’s okay. I know in the end that might hurt me and hurt my channel because it’s not appealing or
doesn’t look as high quality, but I like switching it up and seeing what works
seeing what I like and my channel is still very very new so I think I have
time to experiment with things before I pick like a style or something. And
because I’m moving away from expat content and more towards media criticism
content, my videos will now primarily be about pop culture, politics, human rights,
things that I’m really passionate about and that I hope you are too. And if you
guys didn’t know, before I wrap up the video I do have a Patreon! I know it’s
ridiculously early to have one because most channels don’t start a patreon
until after they get really big, but I thought why not. And I want to say thank
you to all of my Patrons who have donated and have supported my channel
because that makes me feel so like amazing. So thank you for that, and for
those of you who didn’t know I have a Patreon, I added a $1 tier today and
today is October 7th, so I added a $1 tier where you can help me decide on
thumbnails and see video topics early. And then I have a $5 patreon tier which
is where you get the same things that’s the $1 tier but also your name and the
ending credits or your fake name. And then I changed my $10 tier to a $7.50 tier… Hey guys just hopping on one last time to talk about my Patreon. My
goal is to get 20 Patrons and when I get 20 I will finally have money enough
to invest in equipment like a microphone, and a camera, so I’m not like using a headset.
And I actually did try to find a microphone for my setup, but it turned out to
be a huge failure. If you’re a Patron you know what happened.
So that’s why I’m just waiting you know to grow my channel in order to have the
money to invest in better equipment, and I really hope that I reach that goal. So
thanks. And the 7.50 tier are for people who want to join me in a livestream once a month
and just chat about whatever, so you know if you’re interested in donating to my
Patreon I’d be eternally grateful. And each tier comes with its own perks
so hopefully that interests you. And so yeah, I’m gonna end the video here. I want to say a
huge huge thank you again to my Patrons and my subscribers and to people who come
here and like my videos, who come and watch my videos every week, and who care
about this channel as much as I do because I’ve had a really good time on
YouTube so far and it’s just the beginning!
So yeah wish me luck I’ll see you in the next one bye 🙂


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